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listening to: Bi's annyong iran maldeshin
I'm still in a bad mood today. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. Thanks people who had comforted me when I need you the most. Without you guys, I would've killed myself. Well not really, I'm just saying it *grin* It makes me sound like I was really depressed, which I wasn't. Not extremely depressed. Just a normal one.
I'm scared of feeling full now. When I eat, and I feel full, I'm so scared that I want to puke it all out again. It's very scary, isn't it. I know that I haven't been eating healthily nowadays, but I can't help it. Not when her voice rings in my head, saying what she'd said over and over again. Maybe I'm not worth it? And you guys would be saying to me, 'don't be stupid'. Yeah I am being stupid, but there is a reason for it.
I am completely lost now. Could someone tell me what to do. Or are you guys going to scold me and ask me to find my own way? Are you going to tell me what I should be more mature and not to grieve over a small deal?
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
listening to: Bi's annyong iran maldeshin
I'm still in a bad mood today. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. Thanks people who had comforted me when I need you the most. Without you guys, I would've killed myself. Well not really, I'm just saying it *grin* It makes me sound like I was really depressed, which I wasn't. Not extremely depressed. Just a normal one.
I'm scared of feeling full now. When I eat, and I feel full, I'm so scared that I want to puke it all out again. It's very scary, isn't it. I know that I haven't been eating healthily nowadays, but I can't help it. Not when her voice rings in my head, saying what she'd said over and over again. Maybe I'm not worth it? And you guys would be saying to me, 'don't be stupid'. Yeah I am being stupid, but there is a reason for it.
I am completely lost now. Could someone tell me what to do. Or are you guys going to scold me and ask me to find my own way? Are you going to tell me what I should be more mature and not to grieve over a small deal?