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Friday, December 10, 2004

listening to: Mimpi Terindah - Tofu

Argh!! I don't know, man... my life is a huge mess now. I don't think I'm going back to Melbourne. Now I can really feel what Ploy was talking about before. I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in Melbourne now. Where can I go to feel like home? *sigh* Too many homes for me, huh?

Jakarta is so boring. I feel like killing myself already. Everyday all I do is play Internet, chat with friends, watch TV, and so on. It's almost like a routine. What would I do if I am to stay for another 6 months here?!? But good thing is I'm going to get a car. LOL. At last! I hope I won't do the same thing like I did with Neil's car. Don't even want to go into that.

Two things I'm scared of in a relationship, is starting it and ending it. I don't know where to start, and I don't know when to end it. If I move to Switzerland, then I must end my current one, right? It will break my heart to do it. It will break his. Argh!! Pusyinnnkkk.

Gotta go now. Buhbye peepz.